Perhaps because I have a fear of any major changes in my life, I have been afraid to death of moving outside the city of Orlando... until it just hit me a few minutes ago. While I know that I have a great group of amazing friends that really are the rock upon which I stand, I also see most of them slipping away as they settle down in life. Girls nite are few and far between or short lived in the do occur, everyone seems to be going in their own direction and I sometimes feel like I am standing in the middle of all of it with my arms spread wide, grasping for something... anything, or maybe honestly.. nothing! And tonight it made me think, maybe that's just it. Maybe I am grasping for something that isn't really here in the first place.
Don't get my wrong, I love my friends and cherish them dearly, and I know that I would miss the hell out of everyone if I did actually leave this town, but I do also know that I need for something to change. Only a short time ago I can remember having an abundance of friends of friends who all seemed to be on the same page in their life that I was on. Now when I look around, and I see no one, and let me be honest, it's pretty damn lonely where I'm currently standing. Maybe this is my quarter life crisis, or maybe it's part of growing up, but whatever it is, I need to get to the root of it.
So, I'm thinking that maybe a new start is what I need. Give up my comfort zone, change jobs, make some sacrifices and start over in a new town. I'm not really sure of how far I would go, but probably still somewhere in the state of Florida. My lease is up at the end of August, and perhaps that will be my initiative to spread my wings and see what else is out there.....
To be continued...
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I'm all about new starts!! Be happy above all else, well unless it includes murder
For the record, I have it on good authority that the previous commentor is a moron, and worse, a dirty Canadian. I'm just sayin', do you really want to take advice from a moose humper?
Anyways, change can be good, but it can be bad, too. Like having your leg chewed off by a beaver, that's bad change. Well, unless you have gangrene in that leg, then having it chewed off might be a good thing.
Regardless, a new job in a new town might do you some good. But on the off chance that you are rooming with the Lopper, moving is definately a good idea. Prosecutors take the whole accessory after the fact business pretty seriously.
Trust me chica... I know exactly how you feel!!! It sucks getting to a Fri or Sat night and having very few people to call to hang out! I am in a relationship right now, but they have boys night all the time, bc all the boys are single, so my boy is in the mix with the single boys.... it sucks, but i love him. If you feel like you have no one to call, call me!!! I am always down for a girls night! I love you and yes, quarterlife crisis is happening, to me also. Love you/
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