Wow, it's been a month since my last post.

So much for my daily entry as promised, apparently that isn't working so well for me. I guess school, work and jogging my ass off are consuming most of my existance. So if I actually have any loyal readers, my sincerst apologies.
Not much has changed in the past month, I'm still stuck at ground zero, and might I add, I'm freakin OVER ground zero. I need some male interaction in my life, before I start to forget what it's like. While I don't NEED (or want) a man in my life all the time, I would welcome a nice dinner date, perhaps some great conversation over a cup of Starbucks goodness, or a ridiculously overpriced glass of wine. Heck, I'm pretty sure, I'd be content with a workout partner, or someone to jog with me in the evenings.
I know that I always bitch about the same thing, but I'm starting to lose hope that there are any nice & attractive guys left in this city. Furthermore, I have a complex that maybe I am just undateable. Do I do something subliminal that scares guys into the same tape recorded catchphrase that I've heard more times than I can count on my hands. "I'm really not looking for a girlfriend.." Then two shakes of a lamb's tail later that very same person indeed has a girlfriend. You know what, save my gosh darn feelings the trouble, and just tell me you aren't into me. Don't sugar coat it, or save face, stop being a freakin' coward and try being a man for a change. It makes me wonder if all men are pre-programmed with the same thing into their brains from the moment they leave the womb. On more than one occassion recently people that I know have wanted to set me up with a guy that they think would be "great for me"....but they really aren't looking for a girlfriend right now. And it hits me, the same wretched fine print that seems to accompany any male body who has a penis in the city of Orlando.

You know what, from here on out.. if I hear those words come out of the opposite sex's mouth, they can turn their ass right around and walk outta of my life, b/c they are NOT deserving of a moment of my time. You just "wanna be friends"....? Fantastic, I can tell you its under "F" in the dictionary, and that's the only place you will find it with me. I have more than enough guy friends, and last time I checked, I was in school to make a career of interior design...not "guy friend collecting".
I am a good person and I know this, I'm bettering myself both physically and mentally by leaps and bounds, I always put everyone else's needs before mine, I put my body through rigorous 60 mile walks all in hopes of finding a cure for Breast Cancer...I do random acts of kindness b/c I know it will make someone else's day better...I could go on, but it's not necessary. Point being this:
To anyone who has ever said those fateful words to me....Congrats on your new relationship, I wish you a lifetime of happiness, but when it doesn't work out and you want to pick up the phone to call me, or shoot me an email to "meet up for drinks to catch up" don't bother, I will not entertain a moment more of your attention. Someday you will realize what was right in front of your face.

It's late, I feel better now that I got that off my chest. I'm off to bed now.
I'll try to post tomorrow, and I hope it will be more positive than today's rant. :o)