Break the Habit

So, to break the chain of the most of my typical postings of late (although they are quite entertaining no doubt..) I'll write about me for a change.

Random thoughts currently going thru my head, we'll call this the to-do list portion of the blog.:
Today is Tuesday, April 14th, taxes are due tomorrow. Already got those done, check. Kristy's wedding is this Saturday, need to be super dilligent with the gym this week in order to succesfully maneuver into the super amazing dress that I'm wearing. Otherwise I'm going to wind up wearing a potatoe sack instead, strictly out of punishment to myself. School is almost over, that's awesome. I'm rockin this semester, and with 3 solid A's I'm seriously going to boost my GPA. Hoorah for that!! Need to get registered for summer school this week as well, there's another cha-ching in my bank account. :::sigh::: I just need to figure out what class I am going to take this summer, perhaps Algebra, although that's probably not the smartest idea. Maybe a science class? Hmm... I killed myself at the gym tonight, which is well needed since I've only been making it about 3x/week lately. It's tough to juggle everything this month! Damn April babies and weddings. Actually as of today, it looks like my schedule wont free up until the middle of May. But two of those weekends are camping and beach vacay which are SERIOUSLY needed!!
Alright enough of that boring jibberish, I feel better now that I wrote all that down somewhere, perhaps it was a brain wave cleansing of sort.

So, onto the more fun portion of my mind....
Men. Boys. Guys. Whatever.
Have you ever wondered how some people can come in and out of your life at just the precise moment, and change a series of events? Or even change your long lasting opinion of them? Late last year and old flame (from back before the dinosaurs were roaming the earth) came back into my life for a short period of time. In that brief span of several weeks (give or take) I learned so much and I now realize just how much I grew interpersonally as a result! Firstoff, if it didn't work 10 years ago, it probably isn't going to work now either. Point and case made with that first lesson, which really is the most important one anyways. But the blast from the past was not without some revisted feelings of said male and a curiousity for why our paths realigned. Ultimately it gave me the closure that I have needed for quite sometime, but could never seem to obtain. All in all, it was a successful reunion, even for the short instance that it lasted. So, to you, you know who you are....if you happen to be reading this... THANK YOU for making it so easy to finally blow out that candle that has been burning in my window for entirely too long. Although you didn't do anything too heinous in comparison with some of the assjacks I have had the awesome pleasure of dating, you said just the right things to me that I needed to hear to close your chapter once and for all.

Moving right along to a more positive aspect of the colloborations of my current mental process. This is also a revisitation of someone who I had the pleasure of getting to know last year. I honestly can not even tell you why we stopped talking, but I'd say it probably had something to do with a job relocation for him and loosing touch in the interim. Anyways, I'm rambling. I don't quite know how to process the situation as of yet, because it is still developing, but I will say that my text messaging count has skyrocketed in the past two weeks after running into him. I'm so vague tonight, please pardon the informalities, but I'm not writing to bash or boast people, so names are not necessary. Anyways, this individual possesses qualities to me that speak magnitudes in my book. Although the reciprocation of his views on me, is still a bit perplexing to me at the moment. Firstly, his humor...which is by far top rate a conversation with him is typically filled with more witty one liners than an episode of the Tonight Show. Secondly, the level of intelligence that he possesses... nothing else that I need to say besides super sexy. And lastly, his overall character is just that of a really good person. Everyone should have someone like him around. I mean if you think about today's world, good people are few and far between these days, although I'm blessed in having to pleasure of knowing quite a few myself.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not all googly eyed, printing wedding invitations or any of that nonsense, I'm simple saying that I am happy to be in contact with this person once again, and curious to see what (if anything) will come of this. I hate to be pessimistic, but after having my heart stomped on more time in the past year that I care to elaborate on, I think that I'm about due to find a nice guy for a change. If I understood men a little better, I probably a) wouldn't be up at 11:30 at night pondering what someone's thoughts might be and b)probably wouldn't possess quite so many pessimistic thoughts in my brain right now.

Please let the record show that I'm not looking for any kind of overnight romantic love affair, but having an inclination of certain things would be helpful too. I guess I'm just trying to differentiate if I am misconstruing a friendly-friend reconnection as something more or is there a possibility of this developing into something else. Sometimes I think there maybe a connection with me, and yet other times I get a little discouraged. I don't press the issue, b/c I know that just makes all men run for the hills, which is the absolutely LAST thing I want to do in this situation. You know, it reminds me of those notes that pre-pubescent boys/girls exchanged on the playground during recess back in grade school. They were always fashioned in the same manner too.
Dear __________,(scan down to the middle of the notebook sheet of paper)






DO YOU LIKE ME?
Circle Yes or No.






Love,


________________






I know that at the age of (EEK) almost 29 that probably isn't the best plan of action in this predicament, but it certainly would make it a bit easier for me to understand what this reunionization is all about.

I hate to be Frank (dear lord, let's not rehash on that name ever again...) but I'm not a guy friend collector. I've really honestly met my quota of really great guy friends to have in my life. I'm tired of being put firmly into the "friend status".. plain and simple. Because the truth of the matter is, 9 times out of 10 the opposite sex puts you into that catagory to save face (and your feelings) because you are lacking in some quality that they desire in their potential boyfriends/girlfriends. Saying that you just want to be someone's friend... yeah it's really a selfish way of getting yourself out of a possibly sticky situation, and a cowardess way of doing so.

So lets recap on tonight's blurbs. While my life is stressful, jam packed and going awesome in most aspects, there is a certain someone on my mind just enough to peak my curiousity as to what he's thinking. It's midnight, I'm sleepy and I'm definately going to need a Sugar Free Red Bull in the morning.

Much love to my loyal readers, I promise to have a rebuttle of something fun filled and humorous tomorrow to make up for the Dear Abby (to myself) section of my blog. Watch the Ninja Turtle video below, that's a way to cleanse your mind of my 20 something man rants, lol. Ewwww.. 20 something man rants, I'm going to have to use that title for the next time I feel like writing about the opposite sex.